Eggs. [Sima]

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Lilith continued to kiss him, forgetting that they were supposed to be dancing at all. She had no complaints when he placed her hands on his chest- she liked doing that regardless of reason. Her mind was solely focused on this, nothing else- or it was. Once he started moving them, her mind stirred a little, curious as to what he was doing. She opened her eyes when they made it to the bed, him waiting for her to sit next to him. She did, hesitantly, now very curious as to that this situation held. He knew what she didn't want to do, didn't he?

Wait- why didn't she want to? She loved him, that much was clear, and he'd made it obvious he felt the same way... What exactly was stopping her? Her mind. Her mind told her this was to soon, this was to new to do this. It made her afraid, nervous and freaked. She hid it best she could, but when she looked up to Simas eyes, she knew there would be a hint of worry in her eyes, and that he would see it. It wasn't worry about them together like that, but worry over the fact she'd never done it before. It was a line she'd never crossed. Was she ready to do that now? Was that even was Sima was thinking?

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked at her, he wasn't sure what her thoughts would be. Sima wasn't sure if he should continue with what he was thinking. He had a feeling in his stomach that he couldn't really explain. Sima felt that, perhaps Lilith didn't want this, perhaps Lilith didn't want him. If that was true, than she would say right? Sima attempted to pull her closer, aiming to give her a kiss. The feeling in his stomach only grew worse and worse the more he thought about what Lilith was thinking. What did Sima have to worry about? She did just offer to make his dream a reality, and with her in his life he would be happy. Perhaps they were taking things fast, and he wished he could slow down. However, he knew one thing in particular. If anyone was to leave this relationship, it would not be Sima. If Lilith ever felt that she wanted to leave him, at least he would have the memories of their time together. It sure was an odd thing to think about just before something so serious, but Sima was always worried about losing people he loved. 

Lilith, was the only person left for him to love. He knew that she might not be comfortable with what was going on, and the more he tried to make advances, the worst he felt in confidence. He only stopped for a brief moment to think about the two of them, and it was quick, but Sima had no intentions of leaving Lilith, and the only thing that was holding him back was the thought of her leaving him, which couldn't possible happen could it? No, Lilith wouldn't do that, at least he believed so, so with one final push of confidence Sima gave his message loud and clear. He moved his hands near her waist before he attempted to slide her bottoms down, and maybe start something bigger. This involved a lot of trust for both parties involved, and Sima only hoped that if this happened, she did not break his heart afterward. He knew it was unlikely, but there was a chance. 

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It seemed like an eternity that they both sat there, looking at the other. She had a feeling his mind was going through quite a similar process to hers. So many questions, so many answers. Wondering, wondering why she was wondering. Asking herself why and why not. In reality it couldn't have been more that a minute or two, but to her it felt like hours, waiting for one of them to come to a conclusion, yet at the same time, fearing both outcomes. Saying no to him could end in hurt on his part and regret on her. But saying yes could end in many more ways, from hurt, regret, only if he left her afterward- and she highly doubted he would, but there was always that chance. He could shatter her heart into a thousand tiny pieces just by walking out that door and never walking back in, and she wondered if he even knew that.

She searched his face for answers, but found him searching her face for the same reasons. The other things that could happen if she said yes, could be happiness, feeling connected to him in a way she may never feel with another person -no that she wanted to-. This was an experience she never before had, and her logic was, if not with Sima, now, while she loved him, then with who and when? Sima was unknowingly teaching her to be bold, to say what she wanted and be herself... this counted did it not? It was something that seemed to be on both of their minds... She knew she was on thin ice, and she could tell that ice was quickly cracking and shattering for Sima. She either had to stop tempting him, and herself, or simply let go.

For a moment it seemed as though Sima had come to a conclusion, coming towards her again, but her eyes shot wide at what he was doing. She could feel the hesitance in his movements, waiting for her permission or hesitation. This was where she had to make the final decision. She knew her nerves were quite evident, completely out in the open, but she felt like that was okay, he wouldn't judge her. Lilith, though shaking and scared, let him continue. Her fear wasn't that of being harmed, simply a fear of something she'd never before done. But she trusted Sima with her life, twice now. How could she not trust him with this?

[Sima Oratio]

Sima laid in the bed. His mind swirling through 100 different combinations. He could feel the warmth of Lilith beside him, ever so present. He wasn't quite sure what was going through her head, it would more than likely be different than his. It still confused him, so she was able to make everything feel like a whole new experience, even if it was not the first time. His heart was beating rather quickly, but had cooled down from before. He had only hoped that Lilith felt as he did, felt that enjoyment, pleasure, love. It wasn't something he'd say directly to her, but he felt that it was exactly that. Sima didn't know much at all, surprisingly. Perhaps starting a conversation would be beneficial. 

"So, I was wondering. When we do get the restaurant. Your going to stop by right?" This was a concern of his. He wanted her to come visit while he worked, or him to come visit her while she worked. He already did that now, but still. "Then you can embarrass me, like I've done to you" Sima was referring to what happened with her at the library, he was sure that the gossip would have subsided by now. "And, you could help me make the menus if you wanted, or even design the layout of the shop." Sima listened to her breathing, wanting to feel if she was in fact worried about what happened. "I know that it is 'my' dream and all, but I still want you to be apart of it." Sima had hoped she would agree with him about his ideas, but was mostly concerned on her feelings. 

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Lilith laid silent, next to Sima. She war aware of everything, his breathing, the movement of his body when he took a breath, the feel of his warmth so close to her. She felt as though her body was on fire, the tips of her fingers tingling lightly. It was a good fire, starting in her core and emanating through her body, reaching the tips of her toes and the crown of her head. She'd never felt something quite like she was feeling now. Needless to say, she regretted absolutely nothing about what they had just done, if anything it made her love him more.

When Sima began to speak, it startled her out of her thoughts, and back to the very real man beside her, just was vulnerable as she. He picked such an odd topic given the current situation, she couldn't help but let out the lightest of laughs. Lilith propped herself up on her elbows and tossed her hair out of her face and Simas- it did get everywhere, it was incredibly long after all- and gazed at him with elated lilac eyes.

Of all the things to discuss you chose that? She laughed again, finding it quite amusing and cute. Of course I will visit you Sima. However could I not? Though I cannot think of a way I could ever embarrass you, you're not afraid of being embarrassed! You rarely blush as it is! A devilish look crossed over her face, and it was now her current mission to make him blush, now that she had brought it up. She smiled mischievously and turned over, facing him. Given what they had just done, she had a tad of confidence in her.

Lilith moved herself so she was somewhat laying on top of him, playing with his hair, her face inches from his.

I like this little contest we seem to have; attempting to make the other blush more. She giggled again, enjoying herself. She'd taken his last words to heart, loving the fact that he wanted her to be apart of his dream.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked at Lilith, and the moment he picked up laughter his heart sank to the bottom of his feet. What was so funny? Did he do something wrong, say something wrong? Did she not want to be apart of his dream? Sima was so finicky because he felt vulnerable, like anyone else. Lilith could make him shutter at the utter of one word, it was scary how much her words meant to him. When he realized that she was laughing because she just found it unusual he was eased and felt better about it. He didn't expect Lilith to be so confident after that, but he was glad. The way she was acting certainly eliminated any awkward feelings he felt. When she spoke of him being rarely embarrassed Sima smiled. "Your wrong, I do it all the time around you!" This was true, he did, compared to anyone else, at least in Teair. When she moved to place her body partially on top of his, he raised his head. 

Sima had felt her brush his hair out away from his face many times, but her playing with the hair like she did now, he didn't recall. The moment his mind registered the feeling his head relaxed, and his eyes became somber. Sima was caught up within the feeling of her playing with his hair, the way it felt, there was just something heavenly about it, and he just couldn't get enough of it. Sima didn't know what she said, and he could barely talk, enjoying the way she played with his hair far too much. Perhaps she had not played with his hair before, but if she had, he did not notice oddly, considering how much he actually enjoyed it. He tried to respond, but his words only came out a jumbled mess. "contest.. good" His voice sounded tired as his eyes closed, enjoying the way she played with his hair, he felt perhaps he could enjoy a nap. Or maybe it was just the way she was playing with hair, regardless, Sima was having fun. 

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Lilith glanced down at his face, shaking her head at how much he seemed to enjoy what she was doing. Had she found a sweet spot? She was sure she would use it again in the future, but for now, she stopped, petting his hair back into place, smoothing it against his head. She rubbed her hand against his cheek now, enjoying the feeling of his skin against he finger tips. Mind you, their skin was touching in various other places as well, but this was what she was focusing on.

Contest good, huh? She giggled again, deciding to lean in and kiss his forehead lightly. I agree. Though I get flustered easily, I love the way you make me feel. My emotions are so easily swayed by you and it's crazy, but I wouldn't change it for the world. She spoke softly, a simple murmur of words as she ran her hand from his cheek to his neck and back again, just enjoying the smoothness of the feeling.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked at her when she stopped as she mocked him. He looked at her hand against his chest, she seemed to enjoy that area a lot didn't she? Sima wrapped his hands around her once again, it was rather dark outside now. This was a good day, he thought in his head. "I''m glad that you are so comfortable around me. You have more sway over what I feel thank you think you do," Sima smiled, pulling her closer to gently kiss her. He felt closer to her than anyone else. Sima was not a monster, he did not do this to hurt Lilith, to use Lilith. Sima did this because he wanted to be loved, and love in return. He was confident that Lilith loved him enough not to pull something like what had happened in his previous life. Sima wouldn't know how to react, other than to jump in a ocean, if Lilith was to pull something that what happened then. 

He doubted it, but then again he doubted it to happen before. He could only look into Lilith's eyes and trust her, and that was what he was planning to do, only hoping that she would also trust him in return. "I enjoyed myself, I hoped you enjoyed yourself too.." Sima spoke those words rather nervously, but he trusted that everything was fine. He couldn't help but enjoy the feeling of Lilith's skin, enjoyable, soft, yet firm, smooth, comforting and warm. The one thing on her body that made him feel bad was that of her scar. That was not because it was ugly, if anything it didn't pull too much away from her at all. Sima didn't like it because it was his blunder, he was the one supposed to be watching her. He messed up, he was distracted. Because of this Lilith was in pain, and he knew Lilith would never agree with him, but he believed this. Sima was reminded of how she loved the way he made her feel, and he felt roughly the same way. "I just, love you," Sima admitted, although it was still rather obvious. Sima was rather blunt, and not specific, but it was the truth.

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Well I'm quite glad I'm comfortable as well, or this would be quite the awkward situation, would it not? She kissed him, smiling. When they pulled away, she listened as he spoke again, a nervous tone in his voice. I really did. And I was scared to do this. To take this step in my life, but I thought to myself "You're going to do this eventually, why not do it while you have the man you love by your side, willing?" She spoke truthfully, the tips of her ears and her cheeks turning a light shade of pink upon speaking the truth so easily.

She looked into his eyes as he did her. She could stare into those eyes for days and it would only feel like minutes.

I just... I love you too. Lilith leaned in once more and kissed him. It started out light, but then again, that's how it always starts, is it not?

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked into her eyes, he was truly glad that she reciprocated his words. He truly did love her, and he would do anything she asked. Sima sighed, not wanting to tell her this, however she had done something extremely nerve racking with him, so he would share something that was almost equally nerve racking. "Lilith... If you wanted, I'd be a demon for you.." Sima didn't know if Lilith understood the great importance of his words. Sima was always hidden in that human form, hiding from himself. He hated to think that he was a demon, that he was anything affiliated with it. Sima was saying, that he would be a demon for her, if she asked, he would stay in that transformation. Sima didn't want to do it now however, and was really hoping she wouldn't call upon it, because he didn't know if he could walk outside looking like that.


She didn't know the horrendous pain it caused him to look in the mirror like that, to have to physically remove those features. Each and every time it became more sensitive and he felt more pain when doing so, it was so painful he cried each time. He went through this pain however, because that was how much he hated to look into the mirror and see that evil staring back at him. This meant that he loved Lilith more then he hated his original body. Sima didn't know if he would be able to handle that, walking outside like that, doing dishes like that, making love like that. That form was a monster that killed, destroyed, not loved or create.  

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Lilith looked at him, her eyes widening and slowly tearing up. She knew by how he spoke previously, that his demon side was something he detested. Even the thought of asking to become something he hated made her sad. It wasn't that she wouldn't be okay with him looking like that, but she wouldn't be okay with forcing himself to be something he hated. Lilith stroked his cheek lightly, a tear falling from her eye to his face.

Sima... I would never ask you to do that for me. She paused, sniffing back tears, and continued, knowing he would need the explanation.

I told you I accept your demon side, I accept it, and I love it as part of you. But I would never want you to turn into that side permanently. Not because I would be afraid, or because you'd look different, but because I know you would spend every waking moment of that time, hating yourself. In silence because I know you wouldn't complain, just to please me. Sima, I would never ask you to become something you hate. I accept you for who you are, demon or human. The form you're most happy in. By this point there had been a few more tears falling on his face, but she did her best to wipe them away for him. She promised not to cry, but she couldn't help it. Imagining him hating himself to make her happy, it was unbearable.

[Sima Oratio]

"Lilith, I.." Sima was speechless to what she said, his words were meant to make her speechless not the other way around. For once it seemed that Lilith was the smooth talker tugging heart strings. Lilith was still on top of him, he was surprised how comfortable it was actually. He was able to wrap his arms around her easily, and hold her close to his chest. "I've never been so speechless around you.." Sima admitted whole hearted. he just stared there with Lilith near listening to every breath, the way her chest rose, putting pressure against his own, with each consecutive breath. It was mesmerizing. "Lilith, I want to make you happy.. I want to keep you from being afraid, I want to give you a family, and I want you to stay in my life."

"Call me greedy if you want, I guess I want to much of you.." Sima laid his head down slightly in shame. He was honest with his feelings though, sure he wasn't saying everything had to be done now, but he wanted to be their with her. Sima only hoped she felt the same way, that she wanted to keep him in her life. She never knew what it was like to have someone so engaged in her life, and this terrified Sima. She could not be used to having someone around all the time, she could get annoyed, she could find someone else she liked better, the last one being his worst fear. Sima knew if she was to find someone she preferred over him his heart would crack and fall to the ground, cease from working. He had given her every part of him, and she had done the same. So in a way, Sima held her heart, capable of dropping it to the floor, and the same went for Lilith, she held his.

Sima removed one of his hands to rest it on her thigh, feeling rather playful himself, but he was still quite serious in his speech. "Am I still your Hero?"

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She felt his arms go around her, and it made her feel warm. It eased her worry, and she lowered her head to rest against his shoulder, nuzzling her face into his neck. She never thought she would be so comfortable around a man like she was with him, yet here they were. She listened to his words from there, as well as hearing his every breath and heartbeat, mesmerizing her. She had dried her tears and was now laying comfortably on top of him, listening to the sound of his voice, making her heart swell.

It's not greedy, it's beautiful. I would love to have all of that, with you. One day. She kissed him, in the crook of his neck leading to his shoulder. She remembered him doing that this morning, and wondered how he would like it- she knew she did. She felt his hand shift from her back to her thigh and small smile spread on her face, hidden from him by the way she was laying.

Yes. Yes you are. She spoke softly, knowing she was quite close to his ear, and that he would hear her perfectly well.

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Sima listened to her, and when she agreed he swore his heart skipped a beat, out of happiness. Sima was glad that she felt the same, Sima had someone that he could truly relate to. She was his best-friend, and his partner. Sima couldn't ask for anyone better in this world, and that was a good thing. Sima wanted to speak to her more, he wanted to share his feelings, stories, he wanted to hear Lilith's. This all changed however when she whispered in his ear. He didn't know exactly what about it that was so attractive. He couldn't stop himself, her words echoed through his body and made it impossible for him to resist wanting to restart what they had done earlier. So Sima moved his own positioning to kiss her once again. She was already on top of him, adding more to the attraction he had for her, that whisper re-ignited. So he attempted to kiss her- and re-kindle the 'experiment' they once tried, only this time he had much more confidence. 

Sima felt the timing was better, still being relatively soon, considering, but he also felt she was much more comfortable with it now, and he felt he was too. He also felt that falling asleep with her in his arms would be quite rewarding. 

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Lilith woke slowly, feeling the arms of a man tightly around her, embracing her in his sleep. She opened her eyes and saw nothing but Simas chest, and smiled softly, remembering the events of the previous night. She had to admit... confidence in what you're doing, greatly adds to the outcome. She stifled a giggle and yawned quietly instead. Her arms were pressed between both of their chests, the only barrier between the two bodies. Lilith saw goosebumps on his arm she she shuffled lightly to bring the blanket high on his body. It may obscure her view of him, but it would also keep them warm.

Lilith looked up to find the sleeping face of Sima, so clam and serene. She'd always found him gorgeous when he slept. They were both wrapped up in various locks of Liliths hair, it being to long to contain. She snuggled back into his chest, happy with the warmth, but wanting to wake him up. Going off of previous ideas she'd had later that night, she kissed his chest lightly, like feathers, in various placed, reaching as far as she could to the top of his neck and jawline. She loved watching him sleep, but she wanted him to be awake with her now, to look into his beautiful blue eyes.