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She felt him move the buttons one by one, feeling his gaze upon her skin. She shifted as the buttons were undone, letting the dress fall off her shoulders, down her abdomen, and off her waist to the floor. She wore a simple sheer slip under the dress, and she let her hair fall back over her shoulder, like a silver veil over her slender body. She turned around facing him.

This doesn’t seem fair.. You have far more clothing. She smiled and made it obvious he should remove it.

I mean, we are taking a bath… right? For some reason she became nervous, her heart racing.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked at Lilith and smiled. He complied with her request removing his own clothes, and tossing them where her clothing landed. Sima looked at her with wide eyes. "Why of course we are taking a bath." Of course they would, however there was no guarantee that it would remain simply a bath. He walked over to her placing his hands on her sides. He leaned in quickly and placed his lips on hers. His heart sped up for a brief moment as his stomach was filled with a feeling almost that was not explainable. He pulled away and looked into her eyes letting the expression that would be on her face sink into his mind. Those purple eyes that were once hard coded of memories of Hotaru now blended easily to create their own memories instead reshuffling older ones. "Get in the tub!" Sima commanded playfully. 

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Lilith kissed him softly, smiling when she pulled away and saw his face. She had no idea what was going on in that beautiful head of his, but every move he made set her nerves on fire. She laughed lightly at his command and turned away from him.

Yessir! She had filled the tub with warm water not to long before, so she simply stepping in, and sunk down, letting her hair mingle in the water around her.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima followed her into the bath, moving into the space unoccupied by Lilith. The water felt so warm and comforting on his skin. He wasn't quite sure how Lilith felt today, a moment ago there were fighting, even if only slight. It was a tense moment and it still lingered in the back of his head. Sima tried to push that away from his head and pull towards something more positive, and that was what he wanted from Lilith right now. He wanted her love, her body, her scent, everything that she could offer, and he wanted to give her all that she wanted. Sima grabbed a hold of her hand and spoke silently. "Lilith, before I do what I'm tempted to, I want to tell you something." Sima grasped her hand tightly and smiled lowly. "I just wanted to thank you Lilith.. Thank you for everything you've done for me, everything you've shown me. Lilith you've shared so much of your Life with me, really everything you could ever offer a man, and everything I ever desire from you." 

Sima breathed in heavily, it was easy to tell his words became heavy and hard to say, but he kept his words after relaxing his heart. 

"More and more it lays on my mind that I have not shared as much in comparison, and I just wanted to tell you something, not as a man, because I am not a man, that is nothing but a lie, a facade, I am not a man." 

"Lilith, I want you to know that even Demons can fall in love, and even a Demon that refuses to be what it is can fall in love with something far more beautiful. And the Demon in question.. wants to love you, wants to be able to show you what it actually looks like..." 

"Lilith I love you," Sima looked at the water feeling nervous for some reason, his heart racing from saying all of that. It was easy to tell that he was nervous to how she'd react.

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She looked him in the eyes carefully. What an odd time to say such things— not that she minded, she found it quite endearing, and little flutters went through her stomach.

You don’t need to thank me darling… Everything I’ve done has come naturally… She blushed, pushing hair out of his face.

Stop saying you aren’t a man! she burst out, tears coming to her eyes for a moment. This way you’re acting? This love? This life? It is of a man. Yes, you are a demon, but a demon can be a man. And what’s more, that ring can help you stay a man if you chose! It is not a facade… It’s a life style that you can chose… She looked down, sorry for her loudness.

I will not change you… You do not have to change… man, demon, both.. you are you. I love you. If you wish to show me your demon side I shall not stop you. I've told you before I accept every side, though I know you do not believe me as of yet. She looked up and kissed him.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima found himself caught up in Lilith's kiss. Emotions swirling around in his stomach, all happy ones. It was hard to register her words, but he knew that this was positive. He grabbed a hold of Lilith embracing the kiss that she started, and planning on seeing it through.


-Time skip-

The time in the bathtub eventually lead to the bedroom, which was much more comfortable of an area anyways. Sima got up from the bed, looking around for new clothes obviously. He wasn't sure why, but his heart was racing. He wanted to ask Lilith a question, but he wasn't sure how she would take it. Sima put on clothes rather quickly and sat on the bed, making sure his face was turned away from Lilith. "Hey Lilith" His voice had an obvious nervous tenseness. "I was.. I was wondering what you thought about having children.." His face immediately began to break out in a blush, which was why he turned away from her earlier, he knew asking this questions would make him embarrassed. This was not Sima asking if she would have his child, no, this was him asking what her thoughts of having children was, be it negative, positive, or in the middle. It was a discussion that could possibly turn into reality, even if it was not intended. 

Sima knew that he wanted children, wanted a family, hopefully with Lilith. He knew this was far too early of a time to decide whether or not they should do that, and it could also be a bit emotional for Sima as well, considering what happened to his previous family, trying to move on to a new one could prove challenging. Sima awaited for her response nervously, but decided to throw in something else to ease his own feelings. "Also, I was wondering if you wanted to go berry picking with me.." 


    

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Lilith lay in the bed, watching as Sima sat up and dressed himself. She noticed how he wouldn’t face her for the moment, and curiosity overtook her. When he sat on the bed with his back to her, she moved to hug him from behind, pressing against his back. Her chin resting against his shoulder. She was going to ask what was wrong, but he spoke before she could. From the angle she was on, she could somewhat see the hue of red on his face, and the words that he spoke justified it.

Children? Lilith released her arms from around him, and moved back to where she was laying before, but stayed sitting up. Sima… I think it’s a bit to soon for that… She looked to him, confused, but saw in his face that he hadn’t intended to scare her, he was just curious on her thoughts about it.

Sima, my love.. I think that in the future, having children with you, having a family, would be like a dream. I would love it… However.. right now, I do not think it wise. With all the fighting about the Fated, the problems happening in the royal areas… Children with you would be more than amazing, and I would love to… She moved forward again taking his hands.

I have something to tell you… Sima, I’ve decided to join the Mage Guard… Roland has helped me learn to use my magic properly, and I can use this skill to help people in need! I know it’s risky, because you are a Fated… but I want to do this… She looked him in the eyes. I want a family with you… but I want this place to be safer first. She smiled, then let out a laugh at his next question.

Of course I would love. Of course.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima looked at Lilith as she responded, his face still red from embarrassment. "That sounds reasonable.." Sima replied quietly. He wasn't sure why, but even though she agreed that in the future having kids would be a good thing, but for some reason Sima felt like he needed to rush. He knew this was idiotic thinking, and kept these ideas from surfacing, but something told him sooner was better. Sima however understood what was going on around him, however to him there were no risks. The fated being hunted did not affect him, not until someone came asking for his head. Sima would worry about that then, but right now his concerns all lied upon Lilith. 

"I'm not really sure what the mage guard, I haven't been in this world long enough to understand many things. In fact, I have been trying with much difficulty to keep myself appearing to understand this world. However Lilith, to be honest, nothing makes to sense to me!" Sima did not know why, but for some reason he felt like opening up to Lilith, and a rush of emotions flew through his body, despite remaining still, and well mannered, he spoke of his confusions and worries. "I don't understand why I'm here, what my purpose is, whether or not I could even get you to bare children, being from another world. It's all grey, I don't know much at all." 

"However Lilith, the things I do know, the things I believe, is that I want you to have independence, freedom. I want you to enjoy your time with me, I want there to be so much more positive then negative. One day I want to be able to look into those purple eyes and see only you, without worrying about the past, present, or future. I want our children, if we can have childre.. children.." 

Sima began to stutter thinking about his previous children, he looked away from Lilith trying so hard to hold back tears that slowly began to swell in his eyes. After a deep breath he was able to push back the tears, however changed the part of the conversation. 

"I don't decide what you do Lilith, my job is to support you, as you support me. So if you want to join the mage guard, I can disagree all I want, but at the end of the day, It's not my choice, and I will try as hard as I can to keep my family safe... That means you Lilith..." 
Sima was just saying that he agrees with her choice, although he may not like that she could be in danger, possibly, he could understand her reasoning. 

"Shall we go berry picking then.." Sima had a much darker tone, but he seemed to be recovering. 

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Lilith watched him carefully, not sure how the news would sit with him. She knew he wanted to protect her no matter what, but this was something she needed to do for herself. When he told her he didn’t understand most of her world, she looked down, face red. How could she expect him to understand? This wasn’t his home, it was hers. She was going to speak, but he continued with a “however”, so she waited a moment longer, not wanting to interrupt, she knew how hard some things were for him to say. What he said after that However, made her look up, a small smile creeping on her face. Sometimes he could be so sweet without even trying.

I know you don’t understand… But the Mage Guard is a group of people with magic like mine. Some use their magic against people who have broken the law, and are being tracked down, and in some situations, it’s probably against the Fated… Which is why this could be risky. However, my magic that can be used in such situations is quite limited. My earth magic is small and can’t be used for much as of yet.. I would be using my healing magic, for whatever purpose is asked of me. That’s why I want to join, so I can share my ability for those who need it. Criminal or not… She shrugged, knowing he may not agree.

I love you, and if the past still haunts you, then let it. Over time memories of the present will help ease those of the past. Never forget them though, they are apart of who you are… 

She scooted off of the bed, pulling on her dress, and doing it up. She moved to the ladder, and gestured for him to join her. So we shall

[Sima Oratio]

There was something in Lilith's words that Sima could not understand. Although It seemed logical, to Sima it was something inaccurate. He knew that saying he did not agree wasn't the best idea, and he wanted her to have her own choices. So Sima stayed quite, his job may be to protect, but it was also to respect. Respect that she was a human being, just like him. With her words however, he found himself once again being lost in the past as words echoed through his head. 

The room began to spin, and all of a sudden Sima was outside. He found himself replaying the past. The long fields that were all once green were covered in gray by 100's of men. Sima stood at the ready, on foot, beside another man who was on a large white horse. "MEN!" The man commanced. "We are few in numbers, but with resolve we shall live past this day!"

"Your majesty!" Sima called to the king, who abruptly looked down at Sima. "We are far too outnumbered, I think we should retreat!" 

The king looked at Sima displeased. "Sima, you have done much to serve me, you have your earned your title, but we must uphold our honor, anyone that retreats will be branded a coward, and killed, even you Slayer."

"We will win Sima."

"'We shall..'" Sima responded in lost hopes. 

Sima looked at the massive army across the field. It was easily over 4000 men, and they had roughly 900. It was going to be a massacre for them. 

"MEN READY!" The king screamed across the field.  The front line branded spears, and arched them forward. 

"CHARGE!" 

The echoing voice chanted the army into a scream, and they began moving, however a deathening noise screeched into the air as men began to fall even before they were met with the opposing army. Even Sima had a hard time moving forward as pieces of men's bodies began to pile, and become thrown by explosive forces. 

"Trebuchets! Over the horizon! Balistas, to the right!" The king informed the men, however there was no way they had enough man power to reach the trebuchets or balistas. 

More and more men began to die, and the King, who refused to give up his pride for once seemed to show fear. 

Sima was having trouble containing himself near the king, angered at the amount of people dying before they could even make contact with the army. "My King.." Sima shouted over the trebuchet's bombing. "If we do not..~" "WE ARE NOT FALLING BACK! This is the last time I tell you Slayer! Even if we fall, then we do so together." Sima looked at him, curiously. He did not understand his foolish pride. A volley of arrows hit their area, Sima raised his hand and 5 immediately dug into arm alone. The king was hit with the same amount, dropping to the ground off of his horse, which took even more than the two of them. The area of dead around them left the army in shock. 

Sima moved quickly to the king. "Sima.. I know it's difficult, but one last time I must ask you.." Sima looked at him, tears immediately beginning to fall. "This is the third time! You swore no more nations would come! But you became greedy, greedy because you had a demon! You think i'm invincible, you know I hate this! I hate killing! But you expect me again and again to face an army, we made a deal. 

"Consider it my last request, Sima.."

Sima gripped his hands on the King's armor, not realizing he was doing it so strongly he began to tear the metal. "This is the last time!" Sima knew the king was using him, and he would continue to do so. Sima wanted the king to continue to keep him hidden however, give him his own home, pay his taxes, pay his rent, give him food, with this he no longer had to keep running, he didn't have  to kill, or so he was promised at first. Sima was furious at the king, but in his young adolescent mind he had no choice. He launched into the air a stream of dust leaving a trail high into the air and arching down on the trebuchets in mere seconds, which were hundreds feet away. The trebuchets crumbled in seconds as Sima tore them apart by hand. Arrows upon arrows dug into his skin, "DEMON!" The men began to yell. This only made Sima more emotional, and he became more angered, before he once again blacked out. 

When Sima once again came to he found himself lying among the corpses of both the armies. The area was covered in the thick scent of blood, and Sima's body was beaten to almost pieces. He found himself noticing that nothing was spared.

He found himself waking up, sweating, his heart pounding. He couldn't think. Why did that just happen to him? He was beginning to get so emotional he was beginning to lose control, as his heart began to quicken, and surges of red electricity began to jolt around his body. He shuffled himself to the edge of the wall, hitting hard enough to actually damage it in the process, as well as bruising his back severely. He rested his hand on his head, and began to breath in an effort to calm himself down. He quickly gathered that he must have passed out, and fallen on the floor. However why? Sima was beginning to think perhaps he damaged his body more than he realized, perhaps having Lilith take care of it should take precedence. 

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Lilith waited for him to follow, but he did not. Instead, his face paled, and his eyes closed. Sima, are you alright? Lilith stepped forward, moving towards him. He wasn’t answering her. He was slouched on the bed, not sitting but not laying down, and he was not responding, not when she spoke and not when she shook him. It stayed that way for a few moments, when suddenly, his eyes opened again, and he was sweating so much. She was holding his wrist and could feel his pulse racing, but she was forced to let go, when a bright red flash appeared before her eyes, and burnt her hand. It was as though his skin shocked her with power. Looking closely, she could see little red sparks around him. What was happening? Her hand stung, but she didn’t care, he was trashing around the room, hitting the walls.

Sima!! Was his demon energy taking over? She moved closer to him, looking for the ring she’d given him before, hoping it was in his pocket. She knew he didn’t like magic, but it would help him calm down. Sima, the ring. Where is it?! Put it on! She was searching his pockets, being shocked again and again as her skin made contact with his, burning her hands and wrists more and more to the point they started to bleed, but she didn’t notice.

Sima, what happened? Are you alright? She found the ring, and took his hand in hers, ignore the searing pain it caused her and moved to slip the ring on his finger, but paused, not wanting to force it. She could feel his pain and knew she needed to heal him, so she moved some of her energy through their hands, flowing to him to ease some of his pain.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima was slightly shocked at how quickly Lilith reacted. "Don't!" He called out in an attempt to keep her away from him. He knew he could keep this under control if he was left alone, hopefully. Sima tended to think highly of his skills in this world, when he himself hadn't realized how much they have degraded. "Don't touch me!" With the smell of Lilith's burnt skin it only seemed to increase Sima's panicked state and only flared his powers more. As much as Sima despised taking this ring, he felt that the safety of Lilith was far more important than his pride. When Lilith brought the ring to his finger he accepted it, allowing it to slip onto his finger. The electricity faded and eventually stopped. Sima no longer felt the presence of his energy, it no longer surged, tore, and clawed at him. Sima however still felt the full brunt of the emotions that came along with the power struggles. 

Sima couldn't help but stare at her with a horrified expression. It was clear that he was not horrified at Lilith, but he was horrified at himself. Once again he had found a way to harm someone he cared about. "I-- I'm sorry.." Sima spoke with a frightened expression, his heart pounding. 
    

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When he yelled don’t, she flinched but didn’t move away, even when he said it twice. She knew he was trying to control himself on his own, but she needed to heal him before it got worse, and in order to do that, his energy needed to stop overflowing and burning her. Finally, he stopped and allowed her to place the ring on his finger, causing the energy to halt, retreating inside of him, and calming down. She couldn’t help with his emotions, but when he apologized, a horrified look on his face, she jumped into his arms, wrapping her own around him. She hugged him tightly, nuzzling her face into the crook of his neck.

Don’t you dare apologize for what you can’t control. The past haunts us all Sima, and some of us have bigger demons to bare than other… Excuse my poor wording. She brought her face up near his and kissed him softly before moving to hug him again. This time, she extended her powers out and healed what she could, slowly. His hands, his sides, his chest, his legs, anywhere that needed it.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima sat silently as Lilith hugged him. Everything before that felt like a dream. Sima during this moment, knew that he would do anything to save this woman. He rested his head against her shoulder, wrapping his arms around her, and making it so any attempt for her to leave this hug would be futile. Sima didn't want her to go, not yet, not ever. "I treat you unfairly Lilith.." Sima was beginning to realize this 'truth'. 

"You try to help, and help, me of all thin.. people.." Sima corrected himself. "And I refused that help.. because I was afraid, but I have nothing to be afraid of anymore.. Lilith, I.. I really don't know how to thank you, but I also don't know how to accept your help properly.." Sima admitting with low sigh. 

"Can I take a nap?" Sima wasn't sure why but his head began to ache quite fiercely, much more than anything he had experienced before. However, a moment later his pain seemed to wash away. He quickly realized this was Lilith's doing,

"Oh, nevermind.. Thankyou.." Sima wasn't quite sure why he felt so nervous. 

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Sima, darling. I love you. I love being with you, living with you. This is a dream I never thought I’d have. We all have bad moments or days, some worse than others, but that doesn’t change who we are. It means we have humanity— whether you are fully a human being or not, you have humanity. Sima, you don’t need to thank me. Instead, tell me the same, tell me you want this too, and help me when I need it. Instead of thanks put your all into this relationship like I am. That’s all I need. Lilith looked up at him with a small smile on her face. Sometimes he had this innocence to him… Yet she was the one who’d never dated before.

Love… You will learn over time, how to accept my help. I promise. I’m happy you are no longer afraid, I really am. Lilith lifted her hand and rested it on his face, some colour returning to it now. He meant so much to her.

Now… would you still like to go berry picking with me? You don’t have to keep the ring on… not unless you’d like.