Post by Deleted on Jul 11, 2015 22:15:08 GMT
Kail was sitting down by one banks by the falls and he was throwing random stones into the water. It was one of his bouts of frustration and one could say that he was blaming himself. He was tired of feeling rather weak and even though his accomplishments were great he wanted more. The blond wanted power and wealth as it seemed from this was like his own. If you did not have the money you had no power and it meant jack if you did not have enough. Since it still got you political power. Heck he wanted power to get what he wanted and he was trying damn hard to work with what he had. He pulled out the Knife of Destiny and looked at it and he wanted power of some kind. Either gold, a magical artifact, or some kind of uber spellbook that had a spell in it. The blond did not want an easy way out but to give him a damn edge over most people.
Even then he wanted to get his original self back that had some kind of wonder to the world. To go out there and find something fantastic but reality would take whatever he had from under him. He wanted some kind of security in this damn world that he had things to call his own. This pissed Kail off that he was not strong enough, or clever enough then most. He was not satisfied and was not sure if it was desire, greed, or envy. The blond was not going to sell himself in the matter of his soul or somehow sleeping his way to the top. He had standards and was not going to cross them at all. This burning feeling in him was consuming him and was driving himself almost mad. This made him think again if he did wanted to cross that line he had set for himself? If he did he would be a shadow of himself and truly go over the deep end.
".....How do I quell this burning desire and fury.....I want more out of this stupid life. But at the same time this place, earth, every form reality hates that I exsist. Even though there are people that don't hate my guts there too few. I can and can't do what I want......" said Kail as he screamed out of frustration and wanted to hit something hard. But at the same time he did not want to damage what was around him. He was dressed in some very casual attire when he came out here with his pack. As he was dressed in a shirt, shorts, and his boots. He did have some of his weapons on him. Kail was so furious that he wanted to take his anger out on something. But as he thought earlier that he did not want to destroy something while having a temper tantrum. As it was wrong but he needed some kind of release of this fury. He did not know if anyone really knew how he felt or knew what was burning in him. But there really had to be someone out there that understood this feeling.
Even then he wanted to get his original self back that had some kind of wonder to the world. To go out there and find something fantastic but reality would take whatever he had from under him. He wanted some kind of security in this damn world that he had things to call his own. This pissed Kail off that he was not strong enough, or clever enough then most. He was not satisfied and was not sure if it was desire, greed, or envy. The blond was not going to sell himself in the matter of his soul or somehow sleeping his way to the top. He had standards and was not going to cross them at all. This burning feeling in him was consuming him and was driving himself almost mad. This made him think again if he did wanted to cross that line he had set for himself? If he did he would be a shadow of himself and truly go over the deep end.
".....How do I quell this burning desire and fury.....I want more out of this stupid life. But at the same time this place, earth, every form reality hates that I exsist. Even though there are people that don't hate my guts there too few. I can and can't do what I want......" said Kail as he screamed out of frustration and wanted to hit something hard. But at the same time he did not want to damage what was around him. He was dressed in some very casual attire when he came out here with his pack. As he was dressed in a shirt, shorts, and his boots. He did have some of his weapons on him. Kail was so furious that he wanted to take his anger out on something. But as he thought earlier that he did not want to destroy something while having a temper tantrum. As it was wrong but he needed some kind of release of this fury. He did not know if anyone really knew how he felt or knew what was burning in him. But there really had to be someone out there that understood this feeling.
