Facing His Fear (Sima)

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She felt his eyes burning her skin as he looked at her. It was a familiar burn, one she'd felt when walking alone in the streets, when her dress showed some leg, or arms. It was a burn she hated, one that made her detest the way she looked- it attracted attention. But this burn was slightly different. This one started a fire in her, rather than gave her fear. It gave her goosebumps, made her nervous, turned her body pink. His opinion was all that seemed to matter to her, including this moment, as she felt his eyes roam her. It made her feel wanted on a new level, one that she loved.

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Once his clothes were off her heart sped up, and her breath caught in her throat more than once. She felt her hand in his, and gripped it tightly. Despite the current situation, this was still water, and he would still be afraid. She stepped in slowly with him, making sure she was all the way in before him, to help him in if needed. She felt nothing wrong with helping, felt it a natural instinct for her. She saw him feel around the ground before standing in completely. The sound of his groan put a small smile on her face. He'd gone from spazzing out and flailing in the water, to stepping in willingly, with nothing more than a small complaint.

Sima... Her smile spread slowly, and she stepped up in front of him. She had to keep herself in check. Though she was nervous, this situation was making it quite hard not to jump up and kiss him again, igniting the fire further. But she had to wait. She couldn't ambush him now, not here. She had to wait for him to be comfortable and ready- and she would be waiting eagerly.

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Sima, you did it. You're in the water, and it will be okay. You can feel the ground, you can see everything, and you know where my hands are. She placed them on his chest. She knew he'd been almost drowned once, so she felt him knowing where her hands were may be important. She felt his skin, so soft, under her finger tips, and her palms. The warmth send a tingling feeling through her arms, to her chest. There was a bubble in her chest, threatening to burst, and she and to keep it down. He may be a guy, but girls could be just as bad. She took a deep breath, and felt her hair flutter in the water around her. It was clinging to her softly, against her back and shoulders, with some strands straying, on her chest and arms.

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She didn't know it, but she was the image of beauty in that moment. Her pale skin glowing, her hair shimmering with water drops and sunlight, floating out behind her like a ball gown in the wind.. Her lilac eyes shining brightly as she looked up to the man she loved, her lush pink lips betraying her emotion further, giving off a small sweet smile, hinting at the things she was thinking, as inappropriate as they may be. There was nothing but love in her heart, and it swelled just then, putting stars in her eyes. She knew before, but now the rest of her knew it to- she would do anything of this man. Absolutely anything and everything. She owed him her life, and in her mind, she vowed it to be his.

[Sima Oratio]

"Sima...." The words for the moment sent shivers down his spine. Entering the water brought back a lot of memories, mostly bad. However when his mind registered her calling his name, it was quite alluring. When she spoke again, he couldn't help but keep his eyes on her. Her scent was mostly flooded away, water tended to mess with his nose, washing the usual scents of people. Sima felt a little glad for it though, and when Lilith approached him so casually, he couldn't help but change his thoughts and put all of his attention on her. Sima looked at she placed her hands on his chest, the feeling seemed to cascade down to the rest of his body. The water was all around them and it kept them company. The water caressed her body so gently, with the movement it held. 

He grabbed her hands gently, his heart pounding, both from the water, and from Lilith in front of him. Their was no way in hell he was going to leave this water with what he was looking at. He moved his hands to reach around her waist and pull her as close as he could get her. He stumbled slightly in the water, his heart racing even faster. "Sorry.." he blushed intensely, it was like he was starting all over again, simply because of how awkward the water made him feel. "Guess I'm not used to the water yet.." Lilith would more than likely feel the heart beat from his chest, it was pounding quite loudly. 

He shook lightly, taking a moment to calm down. Lilith was certainly appealing right now, the way her hair spread across the water, and the way she looked at him. It was enough alone to make his heart beat quite quickly. He reached in and gave her a kiss, despite being quite shaken. It took him a moment, but he was feeling more comfortable. As long as he wasn't somehow to fall in the water, nothing would be able to pry his hands off Lilith except Lilith herself. 

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She wouldn't have known he was shaking slightly, if it hadn't been for the small waves and ripples the water gave in reaction. Her eyes were on his, so she saw him look at her, scan her whole. He watched her hands go to his chest, but didn't seem to mind, as he grabbed them as well. She could feel the beat of his heart underneath her finger tips, pounding fast. In reaction hers sped up. She knew it was probably because of the water, but her body had a different interpretation.

It apparently wasn't wrong- she felt his hands release hers and move to her waist, causing her to shudder lightly, a tickle making its' way through her spine. He pulled her closer, almost pressing them together, but he stumbled into her. She held him up, securing him, making sure he wasn't going to fall. The nerves in his voice were very evident, but she found it adorable, despite knowing why he was nervous.

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That's what I'm here for... To get you used to the water She could still feeling his eyes roaming her skin. When she looked up he leaned towards her, catching her mouth in a kiss. It caught her by surprise, him being so stable enough to kiss her, and it sent her body up in flames. Her hands slid their way up his chest, locking behind his neck and his hair. She was pulling herself up, needing to go on her tip toes to keep it going. When he'd fallen into her, he had moved closer to her, so now they were pressed together, but she didn't mind at all. She could feel the heat of his hands on her waist, competing with the heat of the water, and it drove her insane.

[Sima Oratio]

Perhaps things were getting a little out of hand now, and Sima was going to have a hard time taking his hands off of her. He attempted to move, his feet not really sure what the terrain was like, one foot went to move in between Lilith's legs, however it ended up onto a slippery rock. Sima attempted to move his hands to grab Lilith, however he would have enough leverage, had he kept his hands where they were. Since he moved them his body weight positioned awkwardly causing him to tumble in the water. His heart sped up out of fear now, replacing anything that he was feeling before. It was good enough to say the the mood was ruined. He was able to keep mostly in control, this was only because he knew he could stand up in the water. He rushed towards the edge, grabbing a hold of one of the rocks as if his life would depend upon it. He looked like a cat that was afraid of taking a bath. 

He squeezed the rock, resting his head on it while he caught his breath. Sima turned to look at Lilith, much less passionate about the water. "Can we go.. home?" Sima hated asking it, but he had enough of the water now. He really didn't want to admit that it had scared him as much as it did, and he almost sounded like a child pleading the way he did. His voice was soaked in fear, and trembling. When he was under the water, his head was filled with many things, all incorrect from Lilith's perspective. It didn't make him think any less of the time his own 'father' drowned him. It only told him it could happen again. 

Sima held onto the rock like it was his mother, something he could hold onto when afraid. He never had that type of parent, only a father figure, someone that told him to be strong when he was afraid. When SIma was absolutely terrified, he only knew that he should be strong, but got angry at himself for failing to do so. 

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She caught up in it, clinging to him. She didn't realize he had moved, but it happened so fast. One second she was kissing him, the next his hands released her and he was falling into her. His weight caught her by surprise and she fell with him. Both submerged into the water, Lilith could barely see him, but she could feel the fear coming from him in ripples. When she managed to stand back up, she was coughing slightly, having swallowed some water. She pushed the hair from her face, and went to Sima as soon as she could. Sima!! Her hands fluttered over him, for two reasons; One, to see if he was hurt, without him knowing she was using magic, and two, to comfort him. They finally landed on his shoulders, and she side hugged him, just wanting to help. His head was against the rock, and she heard him ask to go home. Her heart felt like it was breaking in half.

She didn't care about the ruined intimacy- they could do that at home. What she cared about was the terrified look that was engulfing his eyes, the way his body tensed, and the way he clung to the rocks. Whatever progress they had made today may have just been shattered, and all because she wanted to kiss him.

Yes, of course love. Take my hands. We'll get out together, you're not falling again, I promise. Her voice was weak, filled with sadness, feeling awful. She sat up on the rocks, realizing they were both nude, and he could clearly see her, but knowing he was to far gone to notice. She held her hands out and waited, averting her lilac eyes as they glazed over and tears threatened to fall. She had failed him today.

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Sima could hear Lilith near him, he wasn't sure how he was reacting was appropriate, but he just couldn't help himself. He wanted to apologize for ruining their moment, but he couldn't find the right way to do it. He simply waited, hearing her voice he could tell already she felt bad. So when she did offer her hands, he took them without any issues. His heart broke at the sound of her voice, he hated the thought of her feeling so bad, it was that easy to tell in her voice. "Lilith, don't be so sad.." He shivered as he got out of the water, realizing that it was rather cold. Lilith did not know this, but they had not failed. He was terrified of drowning yes, but he had made ground. Nothing was shattered, if anything he took falling in the water much better than he did before. 

Sima let go of her hand, shambling over to his clothes. The cold was something he always disliked, at least when he wasn't too hot. He put on his clothes, not caring much at all for anything else at the moment. After putting on his clothes he walked over to Lilith thinking that she would do the same thing. 
Sima waited for her, to get dressed. He then shyly reached his hand over to hers, feeling much more comfortable having that bond. "I love you Lilith, and, we made progress today.." Sima's voice was a bit shaken but recovering quickly. "I'll swim with you anytime you want, just don't feel bad.." Sima sighed lightly afterwords. 

He tugged lightly in an attempt to get her to look at him. He then wrapped his arms around her for a hug, it would help him, and hopefully her. "Thank you for the fun time, " Sharing warmth was another benefit of a hug, especially since it was rather cold outside. 

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Lilith was shivering, and after she helped him up she walked to her own clothes, pulling them on, but not bothering to tie the bodice back up. It wasn't revealing, but it was more open than usual, giving it a slight reveal. She picked up her jacket and put it on before gathering all of her hair and squeezing it to get the water out. She gave up a moment later. She saw Sima reach for her hands, and she gave them to him easily, still refusing to look at him. Hearing him say he loved her made her chest feel tight.

You don't have to pretend that it's okay. You're scared, and that's allowed. You don't have to make me feel better, I'm supposed to be helping you. She mumbled, pouting lightly. He wanted her to look at him, that became clear, and after a slight hesitation she did, tilting her head up to see him through glazed eyes. She leaned in the hug, wrapping her arms tightly around him, needing the contact. She was just as fragile as he, but in many different way.s

Let's go home.

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Sima felt her warmth in contact with his own., and he wanted to detest what she had so badly. He however couldn't have brought it up at that moment knowing that she would only detest his words. Sima agreed with however what she said. "Yes, let's go home." He agreed with her quickly, ready already to walk home. He was enjoying how much she wrapped herself around him in the hug, it was sensational. He stood there with her soaking in every moment not wanting it to end quickly. It was comforting, more comforting than almost anything he had experienced in his life. He felt slightly worried for a few reasons, what Lilith felt now, if she was worried about how he reacted. Sima was also worried about how she reacted to him, it hurt a little to know that she was still upset, when all he wanted to do was to see her smile, and become happy in the process. 

"Maybe we should start walking.." Sima smiled, raising his hand towards her face, and brushing her hair lightly to the side, copying what she did oh so many times to him. He then placed his hand on her cheek, and looked directly into her eyes. This was something Lilith seemed to be fond of when she wanted to show her affection, and, it certainly gave Sima the butterflies. He only hoped that it had the same affect on Lilith that it did on him. "We don't have to go to bed when we get home," Sima was obviously including some things for Lilith to pick up on that line. 

He dropped his hand slowly from her cheek, and rested it as his side. So let's go," Perhaps if he didn't initiate the walk then wouldn't go, so he tugged her into gear, just to get the first few steps. 

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The motion of what he did with her hair gave her butterflies. An action she was so used to doing for him, used on her, and it made her speechless. She gazed up at the man, who was now more calm than her- how did that happen?? Lilith leaned into his hand against her cheek, loving the soft warmth of his skin. You would do anything for him... That includes putting aside your worries. He's fine. She took a breath and brought her hand up to his, holding it until he let it drop. Her body felt flutttery, the look in his eyes causing her mind to go blank. He had such power of her, and she doubted he knew that.

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The blue, the deep, beautiful, soulful blue. She knew she could gaze into those eyes forever, knew she would never bore of the emotions, the history that rested in the depths of the oceans in his eyes. It was like, gazing into his eyes cast a spell on her, calming her, reminding her of her love for him. Lilith was aware of his voice, and after a moment, the words registered fully, turning her red, but without knowing it, a sly smile spread on her face, betraying her thoughts completely. This man had certainly changed her...

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...okay. She squeaked, picking up her bag and stuffing the book and blanket back in it. She went next to him and looped her arm through his, and stopped him from walking after a moment. They were a good 15 feet from the water now, so she felt no hesitation. She dropped the bag again for a moment and moved to stand in front of him, reaching up on her tip toes. She took his face in her hands and made him lean towards him, capturing his lips in a powerful, strong kiss, one that lasted a few moments and that she controlled completely. She wasn't sure what was making her do this, but she knew she needed to. When she pulled back, she gazed into his eyes for a moment, the regular lilac instead muddled and filled with an emotion she only had in the dark when they were alone. She let him go and picked up the bag, turning and walked towards their home, knowing he would be right behind her when he registered what she'd done.

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Sima felt her look her hand through his, and it made him feel much better. In fact, anything with her made him feel better. However, when she stopped he was confused. Perhaps he was a bit exhausted because of what had happened earlier, but when Lilith kissed him he was completely surprised. He couldn't help but wrap his hands around her waist and see this kiss through fruition. He was shocked to say the least, and when Lilith stopped he stood there for a moment trying to register exactly what had happened. Usually it had been Sima who shocked her wasn't it? It was certainly a something she would have done had the beginning of their relationship. Sima turned around, catching back up with Lilith. 

Sima easily picked up the emotion she seemed to be letting off, and found his way back to her side. He grabbed her hand once again, deciding to let that slide until they got home. "That was certainly un-expected..." He said, forgetful now of what had happened previously in the water. He played with her fingers as he held her hand, moving them ever so slightly, trying not to disturb the natural way her hand wrapped around his. 

The walk was silent, and somewhat romantic. Sima enjoyed every step of it, even if their was silence. All he needed was her beside him. The walk casually made itself to the outskirts of town, where they would sure be soon to make it home. "Did you enjoy yourself today?" He asked her, feeling a tad worried that perhaps by asking for her help she was a bit overwhelmed with dealing with him in water.

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As she predicted, it took him only a moment to return his hand to hers, falling in step with her. Her face had bloomed a red colour immediately after turning away, but she didn't regret it. She squeezed his hand tightly, and faced forward as she answered, wanting to keep up this sense of confidence.

Sometimes the most unexpected things are the one you remember most... She had a nervous smile on her face, and her eyes were cast down as they walked. She felt him playing with her fingers lightly, and it was like her nerve endings were on fire. The silence helped her calm her breathing, stop her heart from exploding from her chest. As they reached the outskirts of town, she noticed how the sun was nearly gone, the sky only showing the remains of the light, casting reds and yellows into a quickly darkening blue sky.

I did, I think we made a decent amount of progress. You seem to be doing better, and that's what matters. We can go back any time you feel ready to. She glanced up him honestly, meaning every word. Helping him was something she loved to do. It made her feel involved in his life, like she was able to help him change the things he didn't like. She gripped his hand again.

They kept walking, and before long there were a few feet from the house, and she fished for her key, coming up blank. Sima.... Do you have your key? She looked up nervously. If they couldn't get in, her previous actions would be put on hold, and she didn't think she could handle that... There was her backyard- no, she would not do that. She was more in control of herself than that. Lilith shivered lightly at the breeze, as it got colder as the sun went down.

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Sima walked with Lilith listening to her words and silently agreeing to them. He walked with her to the front door, When she asked if he still had his key he checked his pocket. He did, though where was Lilith's? It would be pretty damn easy for him to track down her lost key. However for the time being that was not what he was interested. He could feel Lilith's shivering through her hand, and he looked at her curiously. He stepped over to the door and unlocked it, putting his key away and opening the door for Lilith. He made sure to close the door behind Lilith so that the amount of cold air that got in was limited. "Do you want me to make anything? I was thinking like tea or something." Something that was warm the two could enjoy together. 

He grabbed her hand once again while inside. He stopped briefly, looking into Lilith's eyes. He didn't understand why but his heart sped up when he looked into her eyes. What was it about her that made him feel like this? He blushed lightly, "Do you want to cuddle?" Why was this so embarrassing to say like this? They had done much more than cuddling, but the simple action of asking made him blush? He didn't understand. Sima held both her hands, enjoying the feeling of the two in his own hand, and enjoying her scent, and the way it washed onto him. 

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She walked in, grateful when he quickly shut the door. The cold air was going through her jacket, making her quite cold. She looked up at him curiously. Tea? Not then. When he grabbed her hands, she felt something different coming from him. It wasn't often he was nervous. Cuddle..? That sounds perfect...  Her mind was still very much on their activities in the springs, but cuddling sounded wonderful- and could lead to many things. 

Lilith released his hands and placed her bag back in it's usual place, hanging her coat up right after. She shook out her mess of tangles, still damp from the water. She glanced at him from the corner of her eyes, her hair falling into place, in various directions around her. She had a sweet smile, and she reached for Sima's hand, leading him to their bed. She liked how she referred to things as "theirs" now. It wasn't all hers, wasn't all his. They shared a bed, a home, and a life. Poetically beautiful in Lilith's mind. 

Lay with me. She released his hand and crawled into bed, thinking she would change later. Her dress was lifted up her legs lightly, clinging to the blanket on the bed. She laid on her back, hair splayed around her, and looked at Sima through half closed eyes, waiting for him to join her.

[Sima Oratio]

Sima absolutely loved cuddling. Sima felt it was something two people could do to feel very close, it was just Lilith and Sima, her eyes and his, her warmth, and his warmth. It was something exciting, yet calm. Sima had an idea that it may lead to something more, but when he asked her to cuddle, for the moment, that was all he wanted. When she released his hand he watched her absent minded. When she grabbed his hand once again he smiled, the way she was asking quite interesting. He followed as she lead him to the bedroom, and releasing his hand, her question sparked up an odd mix of emotions, some very familiar with Lilith. 

He crawled into bed with her, looking at her, and by the look on his face, with much thought. He crawled overtop of her, reaching his hand near her neck, only to feel the hair behind it. He enjoyed playing with her hair, and found it was something fun for both partners involved, however if she was to touch his he doubted he'd have the cognitive function to play with her hair as she played with his. He kissed her lightly on the lips, rolling beside her, as if not to let that kiss carry too far. He snaked his hands under her, moving her if he had to, in order to get a good wrap around her and pull her closely to him. 

Sima breathed heavily for a moment, but then slowed as if trying to listen to something else. 

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Lilith waited patently for him to join her, and one he did her eyes were glued to him- the way he moved, the look on his face- little details that added together to create the glorious man that was coming towards her. She stayed silent as he hovered over her, putting his hand behind her neck. The feel of his fingers entangling in her hair was heavenly, and she responded to it with a small smile, her eyes turning up to look in his. When he leaned down to kiss her, she stretched her neck up, bringing the contact faster, as well as making the kiss deeper than she knew he intended. When he pulled away, she pouted softly, but let him wrap his arms around her, moving her closer.

It was more than comfortable, that she could admit. She laid one leg over his, to make the position a little less awkward, completing the comfort-for her at least. Her face wasn't far from his, and she could feel his breath on her skin. He smelled amazing, like the forest, and something she couldn't even place- all she knew was it made her head spin. Lilith nuzzled her face into his neck, kissing that spot softly.

I love you Sima Oratio. Her voice was airy, floating to his ear softly. She didn't speak loud, but it wasn't quite a whisper either.